My Carson

Since I've been blogging since 2005, I've realized I obviously have tons of Hayden posts but not very many "just Carson" posts. I guess that's the way it goes as you add more kiddos to the fam! So, this post is just about my Carson. Carson has a very special place in my heart. One that is different than the one I have for Hayden. I think, looking back now, that I've been "sick" since before I had Hayden. Knowing the symptoms I have now, I think I've been working on this disease for a while! It wasn't until about 6 weeks after having Carson that I finally had enough symptoms to get a diagnosis! My neurologist has told me that child birth, many times, triggers your symptoms. I'm thankful that Carson's birth "triggered" everything, even though it has sucked, because if all of this had gone untreated much longer, I'd be in a really bad place further down the road. Although I feel like Carson got cheated a little bit b/c I had to quit nursing him so abruptly and spent a good 6 months of his life in a dark place, I'm so thankful for that little guy. I can't, or shouldn't, have anymore kids so Carson is my little baby that I baby!! I know, from raising Hayden, that they grow up way too fast. I'm trying to enjoy every second with Carson and every phase he goes through. I think God knew that I needed a baby like Carson to put a smile on my face on days that I need one. This kid cracks us up all the time. We always joke about how different the boys are. We said when they go to college, Hayden will come home and when I ask if he has laundry, he'll say "oh no mom....I do my laundry every week" as he hands me his 4.0 grade report! Then he'll say "Carson hasn't been to class all semester and I don't think he's washed his clothes or sheets either!!" Carson's hair is always messy, he stays in a pajama top and diaper almost all day b/c he's like wrestling an alligator to dress him. If you don't know where Carson is, you better go look for him!! More than likely he's splashing in the toilet! He's all boy and is so obsessed with balls! Sometimes he comes around the corner with a ball in each hand and one under his chin! When I go in his room when he wakes up, he doesn't say "Momma" (well, sometimes he does) but he says "BALL." Hayden could go days with just eating a few crackers! You better have pancakes waiting for Carson when he wakes up!! Carson puts a smile on my face every minute of the day and I just want to bite him he's so sweet!! Carson has been a blessing in my life in so many ways!! Here's to my little stinker bug.....